My moods over here on IF island have have been ALL over the place lately . If I didn't know better, I'd think my hormones are playing some early menopausal tricks on me!!
Some of my latest emotions include:
- frustration and disheartedness (for lack of a better, proper word) about the lack of news regarding our adoption
- osciallating bouts of excitement and worry now that I'm working for a start-up company with ultra-accelerated aspirations
- contentment with my active, but not too full, social calendar now that the crazy holiday season has passed
- enthusiasm for completing more and more goals which I've layed out for myself (probably driven by my lack of control in my number one most valued and cherished goal of becoming a mom)!
- an inner struggle between envy and happiness for of all the women who have recently gotten matched via adoption and pregnant friends/family members
I've been experiencing quite the spectrum of feelings lately, and sometimes all in one day!! I guess it's better than being bored, huh?
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I think the word you are looking for is "infertilitiness."
Yeah, that all sounds pretty much spot on...unfortunately.
rofl Kris. Infertilitiness.
Oh I remember those days. Just keep reminding yourself it's the drugs and you're not nuts.
Yes, infertilitiness. I know it well! In fact, I still feel it sometimes when I think about growing our family and how hard it is going to be, but at the same time I think about how wonderful my life is now, but it's so unfair how so many of my friends are on their third (oops!) pregnancy... Ah yes, infertilitiness.
I too am goal oriented and used that to keep me going during the wait.
Hoping for a match for you soon!
Patti
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Yup yup yup.... sounds normal to me. Of course, that doesn't make it any easier.
That would be quite the emoticon though!
Yes... You sumarized it pretty well: happy-sad-frustrated-(sometimes) content.
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